I lost weight

I am a big loser after all because I have lost a lot of weight. I did not think too much about it and I am thin, really thin. This is a good loss and it seems to be good on me. I could eat a lot and gain back the weight but what would be the effect of that? Still, I am a big loser. They should put me on television and give me a lot of money for this loss. 

Take the time to check out these: weddings and fashion. I know that I don't have a great fashion sense and it has been a long time since my wedding but I like the idea of having these in a blog, a site, a website. 

ar.bellsweddingmagazine.com/wedding.html  (1)

ar.chingscdo.info/fashion.html  (1)

Virtualize

I won't talk about losing this time. I had been playing around with virtualization and having tried VirtualBox and having run into a blank wall about something, I decided to give Vmware a try. I had downloaded an vmware appliance (Wordpress MU) before and was stumped after I had installed it on vmware player because I could not make it to work after the initial screen went out. I was taken to another site and I didn't know what to do next so I figured, I should get the appliance that I really needed for what I wanted to do. Having found an Ubuntu appliance, I proceeded to download it which took forever and did not finish because I started having connection problems. The plan was to download a LAMP appliance and add Wordpress later. A simple plan and a good one I thought but the time it took to download was something that was no fun at all and it made me change my mind about appliances. If this was going to be what it was like to download appliances, I might as well try making my own vm.

With an online vm creator which uses Qemu, I made a few empty vms. Problem was, I could not get any OS installed because the vmplayer would not accept the keystrokes which was supposed to allow one to install an operating system. Bummer.

I decided it was time to register for an evaluation copy of VMware Workstation.

Anyway, here's Cagayan de Oro City with another one: Cagayan de Oro City. My Cebu City site has made pr1, surprise, surprise. Dumaguete is still in the boondocks as far as Google goes but Dumaguete has made some headway.

More stuff

The universe has abundant resources, so does the internet and here are some more stuff:

jackal , jade, jag, jaguar, jam, jamaica, jambalaya, jamboree, january, japan, java-beans, java, javascript, jaws, jazz, jelly, jerusalem, jets, jewelry, jewish, jitters, jordan, joust, judaism-jews, jump, junction, junta, jury-system, just-cause, justice

There is not much to say about these but they could be of interest to the curious observer.

There's A Monkey In My Brain

Today, I sat in meditation, trying to sort out the mess that I have put myself into and the realization came that there is a monkey in my brain, a fool that is messing my life up. This might sound strange or foolish or weird but in reality, this is very commonplace. Inside us are a number of thoughts and forces and energies vying for control over the great resources that we have and a number of these thoughts or forces are monkey-like in nature.

These thoughts masquerade as good, honest thoughts and fool us into thinking that they are wonderful and lull us into the false sense that we are good people. Some of these thoughts are sad thoughts, whining thoughts, oppressed, tragic thoughts that thrive on negativity. This is how we gravitate towards actions and decisions that have the effect or result of making us feel sad or oppressed or tragic, etc. It is a cycle which we are powerless to break due to the fact that we invest these thoughts with the full power of our pesonality.

How did I find out I was a loser?

I had always regarded myself as a winner that is, it never occurred to me that I might be a loser. This might be due to the fact that I am widely-read and knew a lot of things in great detail. My appetite for information was insatiable and I read everything there is to read about anything that my mind wanted. The curiousity was tremendous and there seemed to be no limit to what could be learned. This led me to believe that I would succeed in everything that I wanted to do. And this might be the source of my problem.

As I had said earlier, I had skills and brains and talent. People liked me. I once set out to become president of the student council and I did it. There seemed to be no limit to what I can achieve. I was in the honors class. I had a band and we played in school events. I was popular. Who would think that there was a closet loser hiding beneath a seemingly sure-fire winner?

What makes a loser?

I am what might be called a loser. This is not because I am stupid or lacking in talent. On the contrary, I am what you would call precocious as a child having been gifted with musical talent that turn people's heads. Combine that with a sharp mind which easily grasps things and concepts and ideas and lessons and I would say that I have a combination which should make me a sure-fire winner.

Like I said, brains was not the issue. I would stand out just on this basis alone. Combine that with the sweetest voice that would put a nightingale to shame and you have a formula for a heart-breaker-in-waiting. So, what is this discussion all about? Did I not get honors in class? Was I shy and nerdy? Not really. I would figure in school bus fights being both aggressive and easily goaded into fighting.